life?

the period of animate existence from birth until death. there you have it, the definition of life. and here we all go complicating what ever was so simple once upon a time.

But my life. It is complicated. Just like every other's. I fear a lot of things. i fear him. i fear her. I prayed to be stronger. I get mad. Of course I do. but only because i fear. i fear whats coming is inevitable. But I am only one man, i am only one person, i can only do so much. But i see now that so much just isn't enough. I need to be more than what i am right now. i need to prepare myself so that one day i wouldn't break down and die. well that seems impossible. I'm a mere mortal.

Being too nice has its flaws, people take advantage of you. people may take the things you say for granted. sincerity, honesty, they are all overlooked.

Right now i am dazed. i am confused. my vision blurs, but i still look on ahead. i still give it my very best and i still look like i have much more left in me. but im losing it. this isn't me.

Have mercy on me. Just as Jesus had mercy on his neighbouring criminal. I hope this is not a dying battle. I am not ready.

If you don't get what you've just read. It's better that way.
Happy father's day to all fathers and our high Father above.
And a happy birthday to a friend, who will be turning 18 tomorrow.