Because..a long distance relationship is hard on both sides

Two people fall deeply in love, Haruto and Eba. Days go by, together they build their love, each day with smiles and laughs, with patience and understanding. Every day that passes only gets better, they love each other more and more.

Eba had finished high-school and was soon to transfer. Mountains and seas away. Long distance they both hoped upon. Wearing out each day watching every passing sunrise without being able to see or hold each other, for at least the better part of a year. The girl starts feeling suspicious, she hears rumors of his boy, seeing other girls, seeing.. Kanzaki.

Of course it isnt true, Haruto embellishes his love for Eba, even more-so when it all started long-distance. But it sure set a scene, painful nights of uncertainty. She starts to feel disoriented. She is very beautiful and always stood out as attractive, but certainly feels the total opposite, very much like every girl out there, not believing that each has something different to offer than every other. Long distance makes her easy prey, guys start hunting. In quiet acquiescence, she does little to avoid Kyousuke. Allowing him to play her on.

Memories of her lover, now of old, begin to fade. She decides, that she cannot go on. To Haruto she says "Let's call it a day". Too busy with studies, too busy with anything else. What all Haruto interprets is "No time for you, need more time for everything else".

She gets with the new guy, Eba and Kyousuke, the hot new romance starting with a devastating heartbreak of Haruto, the one of old. Still pondering the reasons for things to happen as it did, he heard nothing about him for almost two months. Word spread, he found out. The truth was "no time for you, want another boyfriend who is here for me". It destroyed him.

"Because..a long distance relationship is hard on both sides.
So just because of that she gets a boyfriend and breaks up with you.
That's just too cruel" - quote character Asuka to Haruto.

This story, is my summary of the original title "Kimi no iru machi" which translates to A Town Where You Live. I began reading this romance manga on the 24th of January. My girlfriend left to study 4 days earlier, 20th January. My life changed much since then. Long-distance did not work out for me, 20 months of a good life, lost to 5 weeks of long-distance, and she has a new boyfriend. I am writing in awe of the irony that take place in our lives, writing so that I will never forget, this experience of a hard-earned past which taught me that...

Love is not something you want to find, love is something you wish you made.. It is never true love, unless both holds it to be, and that the journey of love is a two person row-boat with only one life-jacket. Only one person can break apart(there is only one jacket) and if that person does, you are left alone, and you have no choice but to row. Only rowing one side, you end up going in circles and circles. You will feel lost, you will cry and you will hurt and feel alone. But that is only until you find the right partner, to row with you through the harshest waves and the deadliest storms. To each his own, and to me this is love.

When I meet you one day, I will be your life-jacket. I love you, my future sweetheart.

Just another cake bake!

Here are a couple of things I've baked. Yes i do bake.




Christmas Double Choc Fudge Cake
Nothing too fancy. Oh but give me credit for the chocolate "net" i made! It was a first time thing. :)













Dark Chocolate Devil's Food Cakes
I personally dislike these. But i thought they looked quite ok.





Well among other things i've made before include
Cheesecakes (baked and chilled),
Pavlovas (simply meringues topped with double cream),
White chocolate cream cakes,
White chocolate butter brownies,
Caramel crunch squares,
and a few variations of the Tiramisu cake.
(I've never thought of taking pictures. Until now. mm...)

I'm feeling rather adventurous now so if anybody wants me try a recipe, or even simple tips to give a hopeful-baker-to-be, i'd be more than happy to hear from u. :)

Happy Eighteenth..

Birthdays are a big thing? It's a symbol of how much others care about u n how one means to the world. Thats how I see it, but I'm sure you all have your own extravagant descriptions or definitions on how birthdays should mean.

My thanks first goes to my sweetheart for being so thoughtful and arranged with my brother that i have a birthday barbecue. Felicia dear, thank you so much. This all wouldnt have happened without you. Despite having exams you still showed u cared and thus not being able to come, I hope u really know that you gave so much. =)

Thanks also to my brother for hosting the entire thing both the planning and execution. Like he said " i worked my butt off ". Tho i'm pretty sure his butt's still intact. I'm especially thankful for the birthday cake i got from Mom, Sean and Kevin. Thanks mom and dad for the big budget you were willing to spend to make it a happy day for me.

My gratitude goes to those who wished me (be it face to face or through facebook and friendster) and also those who even thought to get me something. This includes those who came that day too..

18 years is a big checkpoint. Thank you everyone. I can never forget this. =)

A heart's symphony, My heart's battlecry..

Emo-ness has been very dear to me lately. Perhaps im playing tricks on my self? Perhaps signs are just really telling me what i believe they are. We cant really tell for sure. I for one don't make assumptions. I prefer to know, bad or good, knowing is always at least something. Bad or good..mm. Why was it that I wrote good as the latter? Is it I who subconsciously take things negatively or is it just human nature to jump to such conclusions. Some say the best judge is your ownself. But I, to fathom such a catastrophe as the life i believe i am leading to is just..unfathomable.

I dread 2012. Would she really be away overseas?

Depression. Such an odd word. Even to write such a word seems to amount to real depression. How can a man so happy which others believe he to have everything, some of which are imposible dreams? How can certain men commit suicide? despite having wealth and even maybe...love. But i believe people are too fast to assume. Conditions are often judged and disected superficially. What if the man just had such a big fear of losing all that he has, his beloved, that led to the abovesaid depression? Would that make sense to you?

With this if i may quote "The higher you fly, the harder is the fall"

RCYU#3 AGM 2008 and random Going-Ons

St Joseph's Red Crescent Youth Unit #3 held their Annual General Meeting yesterday on the 6th. It went as planned to say the least. And spontaneous unforeseen speeches and "new" awards were given out that day. Things have changed from what I once knew. People grew up, at least some of them. Things run differently too but changes can be for the better. Its up to them to think of it and the best to judge are themselves. Everyone was happy that day and "traditions" are still being performed year to year. Good to hear.=p

New head section leader, Brandon Siong. Just to tell you, you gave a good speech and if you can keep that attitude and work ethic as then, the unit may survive yet another year. Good luck with it all and as our motto goes, To Serve.







Here are the various representatives.=) In the picture, St Teresa, Kuching High, Lodge, Green Road and the very well known Mr. Andrew, Acting OC of Youth Units in Kuching.

Brandon Siong will be the next in-line to be printed into the school's Head Section Leader plaque.(im prolly just finding an excuse to have my own name up this blog but oh wells =p. if you don't get what i mean..um 2006!)

Just incase you ask(which u most prolly wouldnt even come to think of even if you had a million guesses), yes i got myself a new bed!! a Divan to be more precise.. And it even has an under bed installed! So if you need a sleepover you know who to ask.... Not me!! i want both for my own.=) Anyway il still show u at the least.

My bed and my brothers at the further end.

On a totally separate note, my brother Sean Tan got into his first road accident. Several days after getting his 'no-more P license'.

Heeheehee. IRONING BOARD!:D

To an Angel in Disguise

This is to you, my sweetheart, my love, my happy ever after.

All I ever want is to care,
For this love that we share,
And dream fondly of you,
As our hearts join us two,
For every breath i take,
That's how much love we'll make,
We will share this feeling forever,
And live it like tomorrow come never!


I love you.^^

Victories won

Big things start slow. Big events get planned out much earlier. The topic in mind is Red Crescent. My affiliation, pastime for the pass 9 years? Back to the post,and for this particular one, time has been much of an obstacle. There was this marching competition held recently at Green Road. St Teresa and St Joseph were the favourites! woohoo! not Kucihng High(note that typo was left uncorrected).

From left to right : Felicia (commander), Cherie, Vianney, Nurel, Esther, Maryann, Edna.

St Teresa led by the one only beautiful Felicia Bateman wearing a Felicia B. on her uniform. She had found out about the competition about say 3 weeks bfore the date? Alot of time u might say. But her exams had just started..that ate two weeks. 1 week to go?hmm. not so, she had to commandeer her camp which eventualy was a success like in everything else she does.=) so that left her with 3 proper days for the competition. Practice and practice. The big day came... still more obstacles came stacking on. The competition grounds were rerouted for her group, the space was extremely too small! But she kept at her best. The best of commanding you'd ever have your ears listen to. Everything possible was done, new gloves were bought, whistles fully equipped, shoes and socks completely synchronised, berets shaved and ironed, and and and marching skills honed to perfection! im so proud of u all!

St Teresa in action!

The results came in, but Kucihng high(sorry lorh..) got first this time. St Teresa, though favourites were 1st runners up. It was later found out that the margin was slim..super slim. Kucihng high(hmm..) may have won the competition, but you have won my heart, for efforts you have put in, to me you all are winners to have just joined the competition. The best uniform had ur name on it all along. You all gave Kucihng high(im getting used to typing that) the best fight and it was a great performance!! Go Felisha! i mean i mean..Go St3? =P